What's up you guys? So those of you on the Warrior trading channel that don't know, I bought uh, this old fire station. I'm in a fire station here which was built to 1900. Uh, this whole section was built in 1900. This was an addition and uh, you could see bricks.

It's a huge project, but you know this is, um, kind of when I think about the hole that I've dug myself over the last. Uh, well. really. It was like four days of trading 300 thousand dollars in losses.

Uh, it kind of reminds me of this project in a way. Which is that it's such a big project. Sometimes it can feel kind of overwhelming. How do I even tackle it? How do I even start it? Where do I start? And you know, just like right over here, it's you know, one brick at a time.

I mean, as much as we might love to, I might love to make back a huge, you know, 200, 000, 300, 000 in one day. If I start swinging for that, I'm gonna dig myself an even bigger hole. So you know there's a process of slowly rebuilding and my son's kind of working on that right now. With this little tower here that he's got, it's one brick at a time.

one base. hit it. Okay, I know, I'll help you. Yeah, so that's kind of got to be the mentality right now.

And the goal for this week is having discipline to follow the rules and, um, be okay with one brick at a time and not try to swing for home runs and you know, go for those grand slam type of trades that might. if it works, give me the chance to, you know, recoup all those losses. But if it doesn't work, dig the hole twice as deep. So kind of like a project like this, there's you know the right way to do it and then maybe there's the quick way to do it.

And I've owned this building now for over a year and you know I mean it's we're doing it the right way and I'm going to rebuild my account the right way. Ultimately, it's it's kind of the only way. So anyways, that's my little intro to the recap here. Let's get into it.

Start talking about today's trends, what's up you guys? All right? Well, it's a red day. Recap Today was not great. Um, you know I I set an intention for today. I set a goal for today and as soon as I was faced with the frustration of a big loss, I threw it out the window and I just said, you know what, I'm just going to keep trading and I'm just going to try to make back that loss.

And I dug the hole deeper. and deeper and deeper and deeper. This is. This is where it gets really disappointing.

You know, this is where I feel frustrated because I had an opportunity today. So so just to give you some context, Um, I started the day with some trades on um uh sino which uh actually I traded a little bit, um later in the day as well. but in any case, um, had this nice move here and I made a little bit of money on it on the first five minute candle to make a new high. That was a good setup and I was like nice dude that was good.

that was solid. took profit into the move, good, added back a little too high, got stopped out. not great. back to flat basically on the day.

Then I had a trade on Sava Sava. no harm, no foul, but it wasn't It wasn't a good trade, didn't really work and then we had Ocgn. Ocgn this morning was on the Gap scanners and it was our second leading gaffer with 156 million share float, had 700 million shares of volume today which is insane and um I screwed it up. uh pretty pretty bad.

So I started my first trade on it on the one minute chart was um back in this area as it broke through the volume weight. average price. My first trade was right here, not bad, made about seven hundred dollars. came back in um I wanna say right around here as it broke through this level and was holding into the open.

that's a little risky. I don't usually like to do that, but in this case uh, it was the right move. I was looking for the break of 970. the bell rang and this thing ripped.

I made 20 grand. I was up 20 thousand dollars. Right there into that squeeze we hit a high of 1088. can't complain about that at all.

That was very nice. It then drops back down here and um, it curls back up. It rips up to uh, at first it halts right here at 11 67. then it goes up to here and at this point, um, sorry, I was at this point that I was up 20 000.

I then bought uh 4 000 shares here at 13.95 Um, let's see, let me just pull up that order. Oh boy. All right. So I actually thought it was 1398 but it doesn't look like that would have been possible.

But let me just check to see what it says it was at. Um, so I bought at where was this? Um, sorry, I'm just looking at these orders. Um, you know what I somehow somehow managed to buy at a higher price at that time then actually is on my chart. I bought the top.

Whatever, I mean it's probably. oh it was on the next candle. Whatever. Still, it's stupid.

I bought the top and I stu and then it flushes here and I added. So I went here from 97 to 4 000 shares. Now I've got 8 000. So cost basis comes down to about 13.

Um, 35 I believe I tried to. I don't remember what I tried to do there. I think I tried to sell it all on the halt resumption. Maybe I don't know.

Um and I missed a couple orders here. tried to trade that small size. whatever it was stupid. Um so added down here at 12, added at 11 55 1191 1193 Tried to get some out as it popped back here up to 12 which was like right around um this candle here and then stopped as it flushed down.

and just like that I went from up 20 000 on the day to break even and I wrote right here in my uh journal which really just documents um my terrible trading today back to flat. This is the time to stop for the day and be grateful you're flat and not deep in the red and I saw I wrote that and I said who who wrote that because you know I'm going to keep trading. Um and so then my next trade I had a small winner on. I think it was aame um got myself back to up like two grand, Three grand and then I got back in.

Um I had a stupid loss on Aacg of 4 000 bucks. this was so dumb. uh right here on this. uh I got in like right here as it was squeezing up for the break of 750, the break of the half dollar and look at that once again I'm in instant drop dollar a share.

Lost four grand on that. so now I'm down a thousand on the day. Um, I then went back to Ocgn and I was like you know what? this is the one that's the most volatile. Let me just focus on this.

Went back and in the meantime I lost on En Lv. I lost a little on Arya. I mean I lost on sort of a few. I went back to Ocgn and first as it curls back up here I was like okay, added at 12 scaled up here for the break of this level here 1238 full size position.

Boom stopped out. My god, now I'm down 12 000 on the day comes back up here. I was like okay this looks like the one a starter add to full size. stop out again.

Oh my god are you kidding me Right now now I'm down 17. or maybe it was a little bit more. uh comes comes back up right here and I was like okay, this is the one 30 000 shares long, it's a high of 12 40 and then drops to 11 47 I stopped out at that point I was down 39 000 and totally emotionally hijacked. Furious.

Unbelievable. From time to stop and break even to minus five to minus seven to minus 15 to minus 37. Minus 39. Whatever.

37 39. 39 Because I made back 2 000 on Chci. Next page I'm just putting out there guys. I'm not.

I'm I'm I'm completely acknowledging that this is humiliating and I'm so embarrassed I said I. I laid out a set of rules for today and then the second the bell rang and the second I had my first loss threw him out the window. Gone. Oh that rule that I wrote down here about if you give back half your gain, stop or if you're down 10 000, stop or reduce share size up.

Totally totally out the window. So then um, I flip to my retirement account and you you know why I did that? Because with 30 000 shares, I ran out of buying power on Ocgn in my main account. So I switched to my retirement account and I bought 49 000 shares of Ocgn and on this move right here. Finally we got it.

Thank god I took profit off at 13 and didn't hold the whole thing for the move to 14 because it instantly rejected back to 1160. But that was a winner. That was in my retirement account which is right here. I made 26 000 on Ocgn.

Uh actually I think I made 35 and then I gave back some when we were doing. um when I was doing some live trading for Warrior Pro students. Uh yeah I did because we had this move up here and I tried to keep trading it and I did make some back and then I gave back what I made. So anyways back over.

So so at that point um on my first trade I made 18 000. no no 18 and then up to 26 or whatever it was. So at that point I was still red on the day. I wasn't back to flat on the day yet.

But I did end up getting back to flat on the day and then I had like all of these losses and that was before I had the trade on Aei. So I lost on Gov x Gov X hits the scanners. I jump in it for the break of eight. Lost five grand A-r-y-a I jumped in it for the break of 24.

I stopped out at 22. it did end up going higher, you know a little bit later. but no actually it didn't I stopped. I was in here 24 and stopped out.

I guess it went a little higher. um Opgn bought for the break of four and then tried to go for the break of 430 450 Choppy stopped out. Bsqr you know so just chop chop chop chop chop. My best trade today.

My best trades were on Ocgn. Unfortunately I just also kept. um I just kept over trading and I just gave back what I made. Uh so then so anyways so I was sitting down.

um I don't know 20 000 bucks. When I first sat down to do my recap I was like yeah I'm done for the day. Um and then you know someone's like hey I was like is anything moving? Maybe we'll get a trade here in power hour and someone's like hey, Aei is halted and I feel like these types of stocks for me. Um, it's like my right now.

So first of all, let's just step back for a second. Um, so I feel like I'm kind of in a place right now where you know this big loss here. the frustration on Ocgm. um this has just for me been a crazy year.

Um, I don't know why I'm so like just struggling. Um but man, it was a terrible start to the year. So you know, just to kind of again lay some context around, you know what? I'm kind of going to start breaking down. so you know.

Started one green day, gave it back. one step forward. One step back. one step forward.

Two steps back, Three steps back. One step forward. two huge steps back. a sixty six thousand dollar red day, green, ten thousand and then two big green days.

I was down over a hundred thousand on the on the year right there. That was the worst month I'd ever had. And coming out of that I was like okay. take your blue tape, your your painters tape, put it over your P L and stop watching your P L while you're trading.

Just focus on trading. Good quality setups and for four days in that third week there of January I was able to bring down the emotions a little bit and I had a couple of nice green days. and I'm not gonna say for sure that those were days I was really really disciplined. Um, I can't say at this point I can't.

I just can't remember. I might have hit max loss and kept trading or I might have taken way too much share size, been stupid aggressive and it just worked out. Um, but that was that week. Going into the 25th I took the tape back off because I was like you had four good days.

That was the goal. I kind of had a hard time trading without looking at my P L. I felt like a pilot that didn't know his altitude. You know how how I mean, how close to the ground am I? I? I have no contacts, I have no bearing, and that bearing is important because when I'm up a lot, that's when I start usually getting aggressive because I have a cushion, you know, or if I break even, I'm usually a little more conservative.

So that was the beginning here of going into this Roller coaster week which was last or two weeks ago on Gamestop. you know, ended up having a day here where I was up 200 grand. Had a day here where I was up 500. Almost 500.

On this day I was down 100. recovered it to up over a hundred. just crazy and then starting on Monday um Monday, February 1st. On this day, right here I was up 20 000.

no sorry, I was up about 60 000 maybe even 80 000 and then lost. I think it was 80 And then I lost 60 grand on game stuff. So on the first day of the month I went from up 80 000 up only 20. And that for me right there was my trigger.

So that got me so upset I refused to stop trading until I had recouped. Um, the losses, you know and I ended up finishing the day down 95 000. So usually I would say things like losing half your profit is a trigger. In fact, it is.

The problem is right now. the second I close that trade and realize I've lost half, I've already crossed the point of no return. And that's what I just kind of realized. Ultimately, to be honest today, because I knew I should stop trading and I didn't want to.

I didn't want to stop until I made back what I lost. You know that's that human struggle that we have with coping with loss. I was not at peace with my P. L.

I was furious. So when I did that on Monday last week ago, today I went down is today Monday. I don't even know what day of the week is. So anyways, I went down um 100.

I was up from up 20 000, lost 100 grand the next day. I was like whoa, dude, that was crazy. Okay, you gotta press the reset button. Made was up twenty something thousand, gave back half was up.

only thirteen grand the next day. Wednesday, Thirty thousand dollars. Okay, Thursday my birthday was up 27 grand kind of like today and in one trade, Boom. gave it back back to flat.

Now hey, break even. Okay, no harm, no foul. Come back tomorrow. your break, even.

Whatever it is what it is. come back tomorrow. Nope. I at that point I'd already crossed the point of no return and I went right into the next trade.

Lost 30 grand like that. Then I went right into two trades at once and one of them was up 25 000. Totally fumbled it, ended up finishing break even on it and on the other one I was actually up probably about 40 000 on my trade. didn't even realize how many shares I was holding because I was so like just in this state and just adrenaline like trying to aggressively trade the market.

just tunnel vision on the level two and ended up losing two hundred and sixty thousand. Two hundred, sixty eight thousand dollars in one day. Friday I came in and um, I started going green. I was up 10 000 and then in one trade I lost 20 grand, down.

10 or something like that was at my worst. Down I think 19 before finishing up nine and I said, you know what? man, you just need to like, Seriously, get off this roller coaster. This is so wild and crazy. As I'm saying all this I'm seeing out of the corner of my eye, chci curling back up, you know and I can't help but mark out the high and you know, feel that temptation to go for.

You know, one more trait on it, It's the Fomo Is this. This is Fomo. This is what Fomo is and stocks like Gamestop can be such huge triggers. Having a stock make a crazy move like that even if you made some money on it because it's just like once you've had a move like that, you just it's so amazing you just kind of go for it on everything.

And the fact is, um, last week we saw some incredible moves and this week, uh, the week before last and last week was a lot of choppiness. and this week, um, so far I mean, yes, that's a big move on Chci from four to eight, that's a hundred percent after hours I only made two grand on it because I I chased it. I bought it high. I bought it um, up here for the break of seven and then added for the break of eight.

But you know, when you add high you've got to sell quick and then your winners are small and then you have one loser and just like that, you give back half your gains. It's you know that's again, it's I think it's I think it's important for me to acknowledge that I am very hard on myself and I trade very aggressively and I am very competitive to try to outdo my previous records. and when I my performance fails or comes up short, I feel devastated by that. And I don't think that that you know Super Bowl being last night.

I don't think that's different from what a lot of professional athletes experience with a huge drive, a competitiveness and I think that a lot of them, um, may really enjoy that they really enjoy. That's kind of like the thrill. It's not. it's not just doing it for the first winning the Super Bowl.

I mean it's the whole journey. that's the. that's part of the thrill, you know. But for me, um, I'm beginning to wonder how how enjoyable the journey is when I'm getting myself this upset and I'm definitely in I in the last 12 months.

I would say actually in the last two years, starting in like 2019, I have been having some much stronger emotional reactions to trading. And it began when I lost 30 grand on the anniversary of the day my dad died, making that at that point basically was tied with the biggest loss I'd ever had. And you know that that began this cycle. There's some very emotional cycle um, which I experienced as a beginner trader as well uh and was very, very difficult in those days because I didn't know whether or not I was going to be profitable and days that you know were red days or just really bad days were so devastating.

But I'm experiencing again now. and I had it the beginning of last year. I started January read February was okay, but I was so upset about the red year or red month, the red star to the year March the market was insane. I didn't do well.

I then really recovered very well in April and May and then into June. And then you know I was read in November. Was it November? Yeah, I think it was November. Um, and I didn't do super well in September either.

you know. and so I don't know. Each time I kind of am hitting these roller coast these bumps I'm I'm getting myself kind of more and more coiled up and like this, um, you know, up anger on the one hand. Frustration.

Um, every job has frustration. Every single job out there. I'll put up a split screen here. so you know every job has frustration.

and those frustrations can be strong motivators. They you know it's it's the. It's the challenge of solving a puzzle and no one enjoys it if it weren't the success, if it weren't for the challenge of trying to solve it. So why is it that this has become less of the joy of solving the puzzle of the market each day and more of a frustration of the losses.

And you know, I think that, um, saying it out loud. The problem is because these frustrations and challenges are self-inflicted They're the result of taking, you know, emotionally fueled trades with too much size, taking way too much risk, and then getting smoked. And so then I get angry with myself because it's my own fault. So it's a little bit different than something like a challenge presented to you.

It's like, okay, I'm gonna figure this out. It's more like a self-inflicted challenge. I'm digging myself my own hole. Why am I doing this again and again? So I just I.

I'm just like really having a hard time breaking the cycle and that's what I I need is to kind of break this cycle that I'm in this Fomo cycle. You know, part of me is like, well, you know, once you get back the 300 000 you lost from last week, then you can start to cool back off. But you know that's that's silly because as soon as I make back the 300 000, I'll probably be on such a hot streak. I'll keep going super aggressive and then I'll end up taking another stupid huge loss off the top.

and at the end of the day, the end result of all this. I mean, it's profit. It's not. maybe um, as much as it could be.

but you know, I was green last year. I was green last month. Now, I don't think I'm going to be able to say the same thing about February because I am Red In February. This is where I sit right now in February.

Um, let's see. So I mean it's it's embarrassing, But you know it. It is what it is. And so you know, day trading is risky, so I'll just put that reminder out there.

Um, I. the way I day trade is, uh, pretty risky as well. So you know, 300 000 gross prof gross loss in the red before today. Well, today's not a huge vote.

Um, average Loser: Five grand average Winner: Eighteen hundred, Sixty percent accuracy. Just. I mean, it's obviously it's that's garbage. I mean, it's terrible, but you know that's because of one huge huge loss.

So um, you know, but that's the P L on the month. down 100, back up a little bit to down only 48 and then down 316 307, Whatever. So I'm not off to, you know, a super great start and my goals today. As soon as I faced that first emotional hurdle, I just cracked.

And so now you know there's a part of me that's like, okay, in hindsight, should I just stop trading as soon as I hit 10 000.? like, as soon as I hit my daily goal, just stop and walk away. Typically, I don't want to do that. I usually keep trading until I have some losses. The problem right now is that I guess just because of the volatility of the market when I'm having those losses now.

several times in the last week, it's been like giving back everything I've made or more than half in one trade. and then just like that, I'm back to emotionally triggered. So the idea of stopping when I'm up 10 000 feels bad because I'm like I'm making money. Why would I stop? I stop when I'm starting to lose.

But the fact right now is that as I showed today, I'm not feeling that I'm able. I'm not. I'm I'm getting myself so worked up that it's not working. Um, the other.

So you know one idea is just take the as soon as I hit my daily goal. stop trading idea could be to kind of, you know, clear the slate and just say all right, you know what? you're down 300 000 on the month. Just let that sit there and let's switch the focus to. you know, trading with a thousand shares.

A true rehab trader. Rehab. small size. You know, stuff like that.

That's hard for me to want to do because it essentially guarantees that I'm going to be sitting with the big loss this month. You know, if we do end up having a really strong couple of stocks that rip up, it's going to be really hard for me to watch them moving without wanting to jump on with bigger size. So um you know that's that's Fomo speaking 100 but it you know it's also from a place of logically when things do start to open up, I want to be able to capitalize on them and I need to now that I've had these losses. But today the market wasn't that hot.

Um and you know. So the last trades I took I had Chci which I made 4 500 on, then lost half of it and I had Aei which I was trading. um and so someone uh in the chat room I was starting my recap and someone was like hey Aei is halted going up and I looked at and I was like I was like okay so I saw it halted up. um I looked at the daily chart you know, recognized the potential on it and saw the float.

I was like okay I don't see a catalyst but I you know that's fine in this market. We've seen these big moves with that catalyst so I was like oh that's okay. so I took a starter. um it was lower volume at the time.

um it was around. I want to say nine. um or was it ten? I don't remember now but um anyways, I think it was. I think it was nine or ten.

So anyways I took a starter. um it was at 10 and it squeezes up to Uh 10 49 and halts it, then gaps up and squeezes up to 12 11 and halts. And I I sold a half at 12 11. it then squeezes up to a high here of Uh 1435 and on resumption on the resumption from that halt, I added back at 12.50 at 12 at 13.50 at 1380 at 12.

And then I bought the dip at 12 13.. So it popped up here to a high of 1435 and at that point because I had added back, I'd added back at 1250, 1339, and 1350. And then it flashes down here in these two candles to 1213 and it was on the halt level down. But the ask? There was only one order there and I was like this looks to me like a false hall and so we've had those false halts down that then rebound and rip back up.

So I actually bought that dip at 12 13. But because I was expecting that false halt rip, I added into the squeeze up here at 14.63 So I was adding at 1371 1455.. Um, and yeah, so I sized up going into that halt. I put out a bunch of orders, some of them filled, some of them didn't.

Then on resumption from that halt, I added. I had an order initially I think at 15 or 16 and then I thought it was going to gap higher. It looked like it was going to. then I cancelled it and then it dipped and then I added on the dip.

It rips up here to 16. then up to 17.. I haven't sold here and I got a partial Phil 1507. I got a little bit more off the table.

Actually I got like 4 000 shares sold at 15.85 Um, I got some at 1603 but then I was adding right back. As soon as I sold I was adding basically right back and then I would sell a little bit more but then I would add back and my highest ad on this. um I see ads up here around 17. did I get higher? I added at 17.06 1720.

Now I did get some profit out at in the 1738 1740 and that was a spot where I remember being like I was telling myself to hold the whole thing. I was like hold the whole thing. you're not selling, you're holding this. You don't want to sell, hold this, hold this.

and then because I knew I was in with too big of a position I was like no you, I was like dealing with that internal conflict of hold it, hold it for the big move. This is going to be that home run. This is awesome. This looks really good and then what if it's not.

And so that type of stuff. When when I trade with size that's too big, I start to deal with those. Um, that's where I start to get conflicted and I'll start to just all freeze or I'll just be like I'm I shouldn't sell. But I sell and then I get right back in and then I or I hold and then I'm upset that I hold held and now it starts dropping and I'm like, well now what do you do do you add you average down? well you're already in with full size.

You really shouldn't and so you know a possible. I wish today that I had capped my size. You know, at like I don't know 10 000 shares or something. I I just was trading too big And when you start trading big like that, you start getting erratic because when you're in big and all of a sudden you get a panic flush.

All you panic, you pan I panic. You can't hardly help but panic when you're in big and then it pops back up and you're like okay, my god, I should get out break even You get out break even for instance and then it rips higher and then you're like no, why did I get outbreak Even It was still a good setup and then you get back in high and then it drops again and that's where you just are not centered because the the P L is now. the numbers are so big they're kind of throwing you off. So this was a nice move from 10 up to 1748 and I was adding here and I was like this looks good and then this candle right here.

It flushed from 1748 1714 to 1463. It just and it halted going down. And even though I had gotten some of my position out up here in the 1730s, um, I had then added back at 1720 and 1563.. So I then had added back what I sold or at least I I don't know, I'm there's so many orders here, but I added back and then I added at 15, 14, 53.

But then it did halt, then it drops here down to 1308. Now I'm down like four points off the high and I'm in high. It bounces up to 15 and I'm like okay, I need to start. On the one hand, I need to start unwinding some of this to reduce risk, but if it holds up, I'll add back.

So I'm kind of like unwinding the trade, but then I'm also adding when I see moments of strength and you know then it ends up. Now it's back at nine bucks and it I was even holding into after hours. It halted down here at 12 uh, 74 and I was still holding uh 7 500 shares from like 15 it opened and dipped to 10.. I'm down.

You know, five points, five times, Seven is thirty five thousand or you know it's like and then it curls back up. I added for the curl back up. Average down and this was just a very sloppy trade. Now on the one hand, uh, from the initial entry of ten dollars and even the ad at 12 or 14, I mean this was a good look.

I just kept adding this was. I mean, this was probably the type of stock like Chci that had the best chance at giving me a big winner given how much it was moving Chci, I was really late to the game on, but you know when I see something like that, especially knowing kind of how high the stakes are in that if I catch one of those and you know I get it the right way, it's going to work really well and you know, I just. I was too conservative to take big size initially and so then I didn't take big size until it was up too high and then by that point you know all of a sudden we get this flash down and a rip back up and I'm just it's just getting. it's just getting sloppy and so you know I put my money where my mouth is and I was green on Aei and I gave back.

I mean, I'm up 24 000 on it, which is not bad, but I think I was. I think I was up unrealized like 80 grand, 90 grand. I mean it's like maybe 100. I mean I I was.

This is a eight point trade. eight dollars, Nine dollars a share for eight dollars a share from 10 to 17.50 And I you know. and this is exactly what I did on Sino last week. This is exactly what I did on Cyno.

What day was this? I don't even remember. but um, on Sino I was this just on. no, no, that that was. that was today.

Um, this would have been Friday. I can't remember what day it was. Um in any case, this is almost exactly what I did on Sino on Sino we had this big rip pre-market and it just squeezes and some of you guys were watching. I mean I was just like, did I seriously just lose like 65 70 000 off the top? I mean and that's that's what I did.

Um, I don't know why the chart's not loading. Anyways, it was right here. same thing. this is the same thing.

same same basic thing. I bought and added and added and added and added and then as it came back down here I went from up i think 90 000 on the day to like up only 10 grand. It's not realistic to expect that every stock is gonna do this Gme straight up on these days when it went straight up and that's the Fomo that I didn't fully capitalize on that. and now anytime I see something popping up I'm like I'm going all in and I'm just getting super frustrated myself.

I mean, you guys can tell, um, I was. You know I was live on youtube earlier and the general you know feedback was, you know you're an idiot and look at you trading like garbage and you're buying way too high And that's a terrible entry. Why are you adding so high and it's you. Know, it's brutal, but it's You Know it's not wrong.

Those are bad entries. You know they're bad entries. However, those same entries on Gme were money in the bank because it kept going higher and higher. But that's not the market we're in right now and these aren't the same stocks as Gme.

That was totally different. so I don't know. Um, I'm just kind of at a loss I guess in a way. Um, you know, roller coaster opens tomorrow 4 a.m But I should try to be positive.

Um, all things considered today. While today was a total mess from an emotional perspective, let's try to look at the glass half full here, shall we? So if we look at the glass half full, what are some positive things that that we can say? Now I'm not trying to, um, you know, or like, wipe, I don't know. sweep the losses under the carpet. I'm not trying to just lie to myself.

I'm not trying to not be responsible or take responsibility for the fact that I create a set of rules and I didn't follow them because I am upset about that But on the other hand, I think that it's um obviously the case that my presumption that I could be you know go from up x amount to break even was wrong or that I could give back half my profit and keep tr and know to stop was wrong. I think that I'm um fortunate that I'm only down three grand and that I probably on Aei could have lost. You know, I don't know 30, 30, 000 on it. I mean I lost a lot off the top.

I could have gone all the way back to Red on it. So let's say today um was a you know run around the racetrack that was very squirrely and now the market is closed and I have an opportunity to step back and ask myself what just happened with Ocgn with Acai with Chci with Cyano with with the 15 different stocks I traded today was today really hot. Was the market really hot today? I don't know. You know, Ocg is a tricky one.

um sava was you know we? I mean obviously there was a pair, a couple parabolic moves but it's a little trickier. Um I mean I I hate to say this. I I hate to say this. I don't want to say this out loud.

um but I think that I need to put myself into trader rehab in a like serious way and I I hate to do it the re You know, the reason I don't want to do it is because I checked myself into Trader Rehab and then I'm basically guaranteeing if I if I email Rob right now I can email Rob and say hey, So let's say hey hey Rob Um and team because I'll email the service desk. Can you set up the following limits on my account: Max share size Max order size Max daily loss I said if I was down 10 000 I would stop trading. That happened today. I didn't stop trading because well, I was too emotionally fueled.

so daily max loss. But but. but if I'm going to focus on Trader Rehab, so the problem is when why I'm resistant to always doing this is because, um, I'm sometimes afraid that it's going to only fuel the Fomo cycle because if I if I limit myself to X share size, you know, for a week. Even though I probably need like three weeks of Trader Rehab if I limit myself to that share size, my concern is that that's the dang moment.

We're going to see the next Gme and I know in a hot market how quickly I can make fifty thousand hundred thousand a day, no question about it. But not with two thousand shares. So you know that's that's that's where that's That's the reason. that's the reason I don't want to put those restrictions on my account.

because once I do it, then if something starts to open up, I do have to email them. Takes them some time to go in, I gotta log out, log back in. and that process is kind of like putting a credit card in the freezer and a block of ice. I mean, it slows you down from, you know, spending, if that's what why people do it.

So that process of having to email them, it would slow me down. Um, realistically. While it's definitely possible that we could have something that just kind of goes bananas. um, you know, given the market we've been in, it's so the question there is, I'm like, this isn't a good time to go into Rehab.

Um, but what if I was down 75 000 today? You know, what if Ocgn has gone just horribly wrong. What if Aei had just, I don't know. Sometimes these stocks these recent ipo stocks and we've seen this before. You know, sometimes and even Jb Gbr.

Sometimes when these turn around, I mean you're starting to get huge gaps. To the downside, and you're talking about 10 15 point losses. You know, something like that With 20 000 shares I would I'd be down. You know, 50 grand, 100 grand, 200 grand.

So this is an opportunity right now. where? um, it's never a good time to sort of go into this trade of Rehab. And yes, I could. also.

Um, you know I could also say that I'll I could do a small account challenge. But the thing with a small account challenge is that that's that's its own kind of pressure and I'm not. I'm not in a place where I think that I want to add that pressure. you know something? I said something I said last night which I actually just remembered.

I said that if I made money by breaking my rules, trading like Fomo and being too aggressive that I would give away whatever I made. So to be honest, everything I made in this account right here at 36 000. All of that was past the point of I should have stopped. And to be honest, everything I lost back here past 37 is too so I don't have to donate anything.

I could say that. Um, I could also say that you know I could also say I should just stop down minus 37. but of course you know I did recoup it. But I think what I'm going to say is because that was breaking the rules that 36 000 I'm gonna donate because that shouldn't be a victory.

I was being too aggressive on all of those trades so I don't get to keep that. So I'm gonna. I'm gonna donate 36 000 and maybe what I'll do, um, you know, is, just keep doing that. But that doesn't.

That doesn't really help. I mean that that doesn't really help me all that much in the moment. Um, from breaking the rules and that's not a substitute for a trader rehab. So the question is.

what's my max share size and max daily loss? How much do I have to throttle back in this rehab? Do I have to go all the way down to a thousand shares? Am I Okay, at ten thousand? Am I? Okay, at twenty thousand? I mean, considering my max share size this past month has been a hundred thousand shares, going down to two percent of that at two thousand feels certainly like silly. Um, I gotta think on this a little bit. I don't know what the answer is. It's it's really hard.

It's a tough one, You know. I get myself to throttle back. and then while I'll have a few days of kind of clearing the slate, I'm not gonna. I'm just gonna start getting more and more frustrated that I'm It's like watching myself getting lapped by other people.

Like, All right, you know, I'm driving at four miles an hour. Okay, I think I'm ready to, you know, speed up a little bit. It's a challenge. This is the biggest struggle with trading guys and this is why some people just can't do it and I I wonder if there's gonna be a point where even I am just like For whatever reason, I just don't.

I don't know. I I think that I'm gonna get better with age because I think that my ability to be disciplined and kind of have composure will get better and it feels like it has been getting better. except the last two years have been worse. so I don't really know.

Depends how big of a picture you look at, I don't know. So anyways, that's that's my recap for today. Rome wasn't built in a day and my 300 000 losses won't be recouped in one day. Not not not when I'm trading like this because I'll make a hundred grand.

then I'll lose 100 grand. Then I'll make 50. Then I'll lose 50. I'm just.

this is and that all all of that just continues to roll this like the stress snowball. So I don't know. I guess. Um, maybe it's also worth you know, noting that I haven't taken a vacation since.

Um, I mean I not to say I didn't go away and and travel, but I was always trading. I haven't taken a week off of trading since the fall of, uh, 2018. maybe I'm just kind of burnt out. I need a little bit of a break, but you know it's hard to want to take a break when you've got this big hole to come back to.

So that's where I'm like, let me just get back the losses, then I'll take a break. Nothing else I have to say right now. So this is where I'm at for today. This is my recap.

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